2009-07-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

Do not know what to post. Even the one that once cared has left. Everything feels so meaningless and pointless. Thought that time would heal, but i can't even wait for time to pass, for each day passed too slow. I am really a failure, failed to keep her by my side, failed to care for her as i promised, failed to be satisfied of what she had been doing. I just want go back in time, where i am still stucked in my own world i shouldn't let anyone pulled me out, because it hurts a lot more when i am going back in again.

Earpiece is always with me, it is when i will be alone and in my world. I will cry if earpiece spoil. Music had been part of my life, somehow it has some healing strength. I wonder how long will it takes. Some may say i am only pitying myself and ignored so many less fortunate but i am only trying to get things back to normal by being alone. I only received one message in my life that made me happy. Though its simple, but meant a lot. It simply says ' how was your day?'. Surprised? But it really is the message that made me happy.

Its something i never would get now

2009-06-01T03:10:00.000-07:00

The reason i create a blog again is simply because i am bored? Don't think that i will update it that often though. There's no need to come here too often .

It's the June holidays, but lots have to be done . Trainings and soon tuition, won't have much time to spare for going out i guess. *Sigh . If this is life, then god damn it, i hate my life . :X Friends are all busy too, only thing can do is only messaging girls . Haha, just kidding, who would want to even talk to me? :X Failure in life . Results were bad, although not the last but it was far from what i had expected. I am tired of all this and when i thought i can finally take a break, there's more coming my way .

Sometimes, really hope for someone that could share it with me, and lessen my troubles by a little . However, we all knew that that's not possible and not going to happen. ._. All would prefer good looking or thoughtful or can give them sense of security or just simply rich. A pity that i don't fall in any of these categories . Haha, its a fact can't be change . Anyway, i am already quite contented with what i have, really shouldn't ask for more . But surely can still dream about it . xP

I will update whenever i can, even if nobody want to read or care . [:

Pseudo